Ok, I’m almost 100% back. Sorry about the downer post earlier in the week. Just been having a rough couple of weeks is all. I got in a funk and I’m almost out of it. Earlier in the week I let a couple people get the best of me (inside my head of course). I didn’t let them know it because I put on my happy face and keep doing my work. Once I leave there that’s when I struggle. This week’s struggle really wasn’t anything or anyone could have helped me through, I just needed to work it out with myself. I’m better than these people and will not let them bring me down. I’m not going to apologize for who I am and I’m certainly not going to tell someone something I don’t believe in just because it’s what they want to hear. I won’t do that.
Friday I could not wait for work to be over and to see 4:30pm on the clock. Earlier in the day I saw a friend of mine posted on Facebook (I know what you’re thinking…you FB at work? Yes, when I have to go to the bathroom, I take my phone with me. Don’t judge me. And if you do, I don’t really care! hahahaha) that the restaurant she works at needed some help Friday night so i called and went in to hostess for the night. I really enjoyed it! I used to work in a restaurant 10 years ago and did everything from hosting to cleaning the grease trap. Yes, I really had to do that, once, and I never did it again. I didn’t realize until last night that I missed restaurant work. Here’s the best part. At the end of my shift, he offered me the job! I was thrilled! Of course I said yes! I’m excited to have a Friday night gig and make some extra money. It was so good to have someone tell me I did a good job and to WANT me to come back and do it again. That makes a girl feel good. THAT was a HUGE help in pulling me out of my funk.
Today I had plans to go to my favorite painting place, Uptown Art Uncorked for some creative therapy. My plan was to paint two paintings for the August WMCA Conference Silent Auction and I did just that. However, one of the them turned out MUCH different than I intended. The first painting was to look something similar to this:
Here’s what I turned out like…which I LOVE. I call it….”Dark Painting Saturday”. My emotions really came out in this painting. I’m sorry I’m going to have to part with it so I’m going to have to bid on it in the silent auction so I can have it back.
Here is the original of the second painting I did.
Here’s the end result. It’s certainly not as dark as the first painting I did and that’s ok. I’ve never painted an insect before and think my first ladybug turned out pretty good! Before I put the dots on the ladybug I actually googled “how many spots on a ladybug” so I could have an accurate representation and there was really no answer other than “it depends on what species”. OMG, that’s too complicated so I made sure my ladybug had an odd number. Yes I’m kind of anal like that.
I felt SO MUCH BETTER after painting. My heart and mind feels better, now I just have to get working on my body. I haven’t been the best at sticking to my food plan this week and am feeling quite crappy about it too. My whole body feels like crap so I’m back on track now and am looking forward to eating green things again. I think I’ve actually missed eating veggies this week. Oh! Speaking of that, I forgot to tell you I went to the local farmer’s market this morning and came back with grass fed beef patties, chicken brats, a huge batch of kale, some cucumbers and a beautiful bouquet of flowers which had stargazer lilies and hydrangeas. A girl should buy herself flowers every now and then.
The rest of my day has been spent organizing photos on the computer and uploading them for developing to get ready for scrapbooking next month. 561 pictures are being developed at Walgreens. Thank goodness for coupon codes. Got them developed at 10 cents a piece, yahoo!!
I’m just about ready for bed. I’m going to go give myself a good stern pep talk in the mirror and go to bed. I hope you all had as great a Saturday as I did.
What did you do today?